Havent seen my baby for days, and I’m so happy that I did today. We were so clingy, magkadikit lang kami the whole time at magkayakap hehehehe. Kahit na magkadikit kami, parang gusto ko siya solohin :-( hahaha kakainis :((( namisss ko baby ko. Nakakamiss yung magkayakp kami. I barely see him na kasi e :-( tas he got a haircut pa :-( soooo cuteeee :-(
Though I thought you were going to be one of the permanent things that will stay in my life, you proved myself wrong. I know I shouldn’t be overreacting about thing because people leave right? No one really stays. But I guess I thought you would, I guess I thought you’d be different. I guess I thought that you liked whatever we had, I guess I believed in your words too much - na di ka magsasawa kausapin ako, or that you’ll always be there. But it was all too good to be true. It sucks. It’s been a month since we’ve last talked. But you’re happy, and I can see that you’re doing well, and I can see that you don’t need me in your life. So that’s good, that’s really good for you. I’m just sad that a friendship that good was not kept you know? Basta suddenly, you stopped talking to me. Never mo na ako chineck up or anything. It sucks, kasi i really thought I was special to you…. but how you got rid of me? Ya, makes me feel like I never mattered to you in the first place. I wish you could have given me an explanation.. or atleast a warning before all this started.. sana nung una pa lang sinabi mo na dadaan ka lang sa buhay ko, pero wala kang balak magtagal… at least i could have given myself time to prepare.. or i knew that you’d leave.. i was just so comfortable with you. you were more than a friend to me, you were like my big brother. basta, di lang ganon, pero… bahala na. ganito na yun diba? ano pa ba pwede ko magawa? basta, i hope you’re happy. whatever you’re doing. and i just want to let you know that i miss you (kahit di mo ako miss hehe) nakakamiss ka kausap, but good luck with everything. dito lang ako if ever kailangan mo ko.
I don’t know why I’m so bothered by all this. I just feel like you’re slipping away, and i can’t do anything about it.i feel like you want this, and i want you to be happy, but it also hurts having to lose you. I feel like i’m letting go of a person that means so much to me. It just sucks when youve let someone in, and they leave. It really really sucks. You got used to them being around and one day, they’re just gone….now you have to get used to them not being around again. Do you know how heartbreaking that is? But youve to go on because life doesn’t stop for anybody. It sucks cause you never expected it to happen, you always thought youll be close to someone….. And that person proves you wrong. You think theyll push through, but they wont… Because they no longer care while you still do… It sucks.